Beta #3! 5 weeks pregnant!

This baby must be growing.  The last two days I've been up at 5am wide awake and I can't go back to sleep for the life of me.  I'm not hungry, I don't think, but my mind is wide awake.  I'm also having trouble going to sleep at night!  I think I have a little case of pregnancy induced insomnia.

I had this with the boys.  With them it started two days before BETA #1, which was 9dp5dpt, or 14dpo.  I few days later I was starving in the middle of the night.  I hope that doesn't start!

So far, I haven't had much of an appetite.  I'm not especially hungry, just eating as usual, with no aversions to food.

Per my transfer day, I'm officially 5 Weeks today!  Although I know I'm going to measuring 5 days behind... unless this baby does some major catch up!

My belly is already sticking out!  I have a pooch!  Is it because my uterus already knows what to do?  I'm not having much ligament growing pains, like I did with the boys, or those horrible stabbing vagina pains (they were painful!). My bb's are still sore, full and heavy with blue vains and my nipples are also filled out.  I have been getting tired in the afternoon, but no naps yet, and I'm going to bed around nine, it just takes me a while to fall asleep.

Today is BETA#3.  I don't feel nervous this time since all the symptoms are progressing, but I am anxious for the #.

Beta #1 @ 10dp5dt = 33
Beta #2 @ 14dp5dt = 271
Beta #3 @ 16dp5dt = ???

Stay tuned!!!

***updated***

Just got the call from the nurse! Beta #3 came in at 699!!! This babe is growing! I go back friday for my first ultrasound! Thank you Jesus!!! Praise God!!!

Maybe Baby? BETA LIMBO... and BETA #2

This past weekend was so nice to get away.  Part of me wanted to cancel the trip, because of this BETA LIMBO we've found ourselves in, yet I knew we REALLY needed some time away without the kids.  We haven't had a weekend away since last August!

Getting ready for our dinner date!

We stayed at this quaint little hotel nestled in the hills of  Santa Barbara with little cottages for the guests.  It had a B&B feel to it, yet a total romantic getaway... wine and cheese at 5 (except me!)!  We loved it!

Little cottages at night

Saturday C and I did a four mile hike down into the canyon walking along stream.  It felt amazing to be out in the fresh air with nature.  I really needed it with all this stress.  I was beyond exhausted when I got home and just wanted to take a nap, pool side.

The gorgeous hike!

Making it to the top!  So proud of us!   And p.s.  That cleavage was NOT there two weeks ago! ;-)

So what do you do on vacation when you might, maybe, be pregnant, and are surrounded by wine... EAT, EAT, EAT!  We got room service for breakfast.  And yes, I ate all of that!

One of the coolest parts of this hotel was that the Chef grew much of his own produce and it was organic!  You all know I'm a natural health fanatic! I was in heaven!

So with all this R&R, all I could think about was this MAYBE BABY.  Can I just say, I don't know whats worse a BFN, or this LIMBO.  The whole weekend I was fearing the worse!  How could this go well!?  And lets recap... BETA # 1 at 10dp5dt was a measly 33!  

I read blogs, and threads, some good and some bad on our down time.  I became a little obsessed with reading success stories.  I knew it could go either way!  This maybe baby had a 50% shot!  This maybe baby had many people praying for it (my close friends know and my parents).  I had to tell my parents after I got the BETA, I knew this baby needed some prayers, and if it didn't work, I would need some support from my besties and parents.

This is the best part... each day my tests kept getting darker!  I would POAS, come out disappointed and tell C it was lighter, then he would go in to check and say, "No, Sara, its darker now!"  No way!

 These tests work!  The top is from BETA #1 day, at 33 HCG. The middle test is from Saturday, FMU,  and the bottom is from yesterday morning, with diluted urine (after breakfast.)  Can you see the difference?

This morning I went in first thing at 7am so I would be sure to get my results back soon!  I waited and waited and waited.  They've always called in the morning.  Finally at 1:30 I called them!  I was so sick of waiting on eggshells!  For the number to double every 48 hours, it only needed to be at 132.

Low and behold, I cannot believe what my number is... 271 !!!!!!!!!  It more than quadrupled with a doubling time of 31.6 hours, per BetaBase.  This little babe is playing some catch up!

So I think I've figured out what MAY have happened.  FET's sometimes take a blast longer to implant, 1-5 days.  This blast implanted on day 5, which is why I got SUCH a squinter BFP the next day, and it slowly been doubling since then!  So I will likely be 5 days behind when we get to U/S.

I know we aren't out of the woods yet, I go back for another BETA wednesday, but for now, I'm PREGNANT!!!!!!!!!! Praise Jesus!!!!

The Only Thing Giving Me Hope...

After a good cry yesterday afternoon, I decided to POAS.  It was my last test.  I was shocked to see it  MUCH darker than all of the rest.  I don't want to say I am extremely hopeful, but I do have a little peace.  I will buy some more to get me through the weekend.

The bad news is that my bb's are so much LESS sore, than they were.  When I was pregnant with the boys, they were excruciating by this point. :-/

I'm still praying.  I'm praying for Gods will, whatever it may be.

Thank you so much for all of your kind words, I really appreciate it.

Oh the High's and Low's of IF

Yesterday's high just came crashing down with an extremely low BETA of 33. I'm devastated.  The worst part about it is, I can't take my second BETA until Monday.  I have to live in limbo for the next four days.

Chris and I had this "great plan" to go away this weekend up to Santa Barbara.  If it was negative, we would go wine tasting and if it was positive we would get some R&R.  This strait sucks.

Has anyone had such a LOW BETA and it turn out... or not?  I'm basically 15dpo.  I've never had a miscarriage, I don't know what to expect :(

As of Yesterday... 9dp5dt

OMGosh OMGosh OMGosh!  I feel so MUCH better.  Those faint lines really do a number to you!  We are more than thrilled!  God is so faithful!

Today, 10dpt, I just went for my BETA and will be getting the results later today!  I am PRAYING for a good number, please Lord!

Stay tuned! xoxo Sara

PINK LINES...

...But they are BARELY getting darker!  I can see why POAS early can be bad!  I'm worried now... although I know I shouldn't be!  God is in control!  He's got this!  This baby is going to stick or not, there is nothing I can do!

Every time I see pictures of people FRER tests they get so much darker! UGH!  What do you all think?

My BETA just got moved to Thursday... Praying!

6dp5dt- 7dp5dt

For the last couple days I had a feeling I've felt before...  That 'I'm Pregnant' kinda feeling. I know I said I wasn't going to POAS, but because, 'I knew,' I just HAD to!!

Yesterday 6dpt I ran out and got a box of FRER tests and tested mid day with pretty diluted urine. There was the lightest lightest line ever... A real squinter BFP! I almost had doubts it was there! But it was there!! In all my years TTC, before having the boys, I have NEVER had a squinter, they would be STARK WHITE! Praise Jesus!! I'm freaken Pregnant!!!!! 

I ran up to tell my hubby and he knew it too! We had been looking a new homes earlier because he wants more space if our family is growing, so I brought him the checkbook and a pen handed it to him and said, "are you ready to write that check for a down payment... Because WE'RE PREGNANT!!!!"

We are so excited! Except, because the line is soooo light, he is trying not to get too excited until BETA, friday. 

Today I poas'd with FMU. It's still pretty light, but it's pink!

I have one test left, i think I will wait to test again at 9dpt which would be 14dpo! I'm so excited! This is FREAKIN happening!

As for symptoms... My bb's are huge, and beyond sore. As I sit here and type, I can feel almost throbbing pain in them! This was my telltale sign! They have ONLY ever been this sore when pregnant. I've also been a little bloated like AF bloated. Today I have a headache, not sure if that is related, otherwise just tired now.  I also have not been sleeping great and waking up early. Although
so far not with hunger pangs like last time.

Today, I did a P90x3 workout, upper body, and took the boys to the tidepools in Corona Del Mar.  It was a beautiful day. Praying this week continues to go well and the sticks get darker!! Oh! Today is my hubby's birthday... What a gift! :))