Beta #2 11dp5dt!!!

I'm actually sitting here waiting for the call, on pins and needles.  I do have faith that its going to be good but I have moments of fear and doubt.  When I do, I pray.  I've actually been praying like crazy the last couple days.  Praying for God to protect my baby(ies), help them to continue to grow and be safe inside me.  When fear creeps in, I pray that God takes that feeling away.  It helps.

C and I weren't planning on telling anyone besides my parents since we spilled the beans about IVF a few days ago, but we were too excited!  We have never been pregnant before, we are so happy, we want to share our joy, and we want lots of prayer for our babies. 

I called my parents right away.  I didn't tell them that we moved the Beta up to Friday, so we were potentially able to surprise them if the news was good.  My mom answered the phone and we asked if she wanted to come out here tomorrow for the Rose Bowl and dinner.  She put the phone on speaker phone so my dad could hear.  I asked again, and my dad wasn't sure.  I responded, "well I think you should come and celebrate, BECAUSE WE'RE PREGNANT!!"  My mom burst into tears, just like I did.  I could tell my Dad got a little emotional too!  They were so happy!  We ended up going out there because our house is still freezing.  We get our new heater installed tomorrow, thank God!

It was nice visiting.  I slept better out there actually because the last two days, I woke up at 5am and couldn't go back to sleep... too much excitement!  I slept til 7am today and went to bed at 830.  I was so exhausted last night I could barely keep my eyes open!  I think part of it was lack of sleep and part was pregnancy!  I know its so early to "feel" anything, but I do, which makes me worried about the future! 

My brother and sis-in-law came over yesterday as well.  We wanted to surprise them with the news.  They were happy for us and are so excited that their new baby, Sasha, is going to have a playmate.  He (no Sasha is my Nephew) was born Sept 29.  So they'll be close in age.

We also called C's parents, which they are extremely happy.  C's step-mom never had kids so she has been WAITING for grand babies.  I was always worried I wouldn't be able to give them to her.

My only fear is that we told people a little prematurely.  I am so scared about this second Beta #.  I am praying they are okay (I'm going to say they until we know how many since we implanted two).

Here are my "babies" first pics (finally)...

This is the early blastocyst

a little blurry, but this is the 4aa blast (not sure what that line is?)

Here's how they were made!

 

Sooo glad I didn't POAS before the Beta.  I took this after my 176 BETA!  Those Internet cheapies SUCK!  But there is a second line!  First one EVER! 9dp5dt

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Just got off the phone with Tressa!!!  Beta #2... 692!!  We are more than thrilled!  I was so worried for nothing!  Praise the Lord!  I have my first prenatal ultrasound (What!?  I can't believe those two words are coming from my mouth!  Prenatal Ultrasound!?  Me?) scheduled on my 30th Birthday... January 10!  I will be 5 weeks and we will be looking for the gestational sac(s).  Can't wait to find out how many!  I will be happy with one or two, just praying they are healthy!  I don't have any more Beta's scheduled.  I will be seeing them once a week now!!! Yay!

The crazy part is that this is when my first beta was supposed to be!  I would have FREAKED  if this was my first Beta #... 692!  Crazy!

I never thought I would say this...

I'm PREGNANT!!!!!!!  176 is the magic Beta number!!!!!! I am in complete shock!!!!!!!! 

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Updated

Okay, now that I've calmed down a tad...

I'm not in TOTAL shock... I had a small inklings, things that made me think, MAYBE?  Remember a few days ago, I thought maybe I felt the bloat coming back, well it did.  Not too bad though, where I definitely would know either way.  I also felt weird sharp pains down my cervix yesterday.  I got really tired at 6pm, even though I made myself stay up til 10 (I just had the pregnant tired feeling).  I ate a good dinner at CPK's last night. I had the roasted vegetable salad with chicken, asparagus soup, AND 2 small slices of C's very thin crust pizza.  That's a big meal and at 10 I was already hungry!  Plus I woke up at 5am starving and had to go eat!  I thought that was really weird this morning.  Another thing, my bb's have been big and sore from after ER so I knew that wasn't associated, but then they started going away, like 4-5 days ago, but the last couple days they felt way more sore AND huge!  The main give away for me though was the bloating and I had tons of AF cramping.

I know that's a lot of "symptoms" I put those in quotes because I have felt many, not all of them before with my IUI cycles.  Please take them as a grain of salt (if your in the 2WW).  But I know I loved reading others "symptoms" and obsessing over mine :)

So after I posted my last blog entry I was waiting like 30 min and my phone started to ring.  It was 1045, they said they wouldn't call until 1130 or 1200.  I yelled up at C "OMG its the doctors, do I answer it?" I'm freaking out saying this!  He says to answer it and I put it on speaker phone...

Me: "Hello? Hi!"

Nurse Tressa:  "Hi, I thought you weren't going to answer the phone!"

Me:  "I know, but I couldn't help it!"

Nurse Tressa: "Well, I'm glad you did, YOUR PREGNANT!!!"

Me:"OMG, OMG,"  I burst into tears, laughing and crying all at once. C comes running down stairs and grabs me holding me as I cry, with a HUGE smile on his face of course!

Nurse Tressa: "Your HCG is 176, your very pregnant!"

Me:  "Oh wow that's great!" I continue laughing and crying.

Nurse Tressa: "You need to come in Sunday before 9 for your second blood test and continue your meds."

C jumps in, "Thank you Thank you!  Before 9?!  We'll be there!"  He is always the joker.

After he hung up the phone we laughed together in shock and I of course continue crying while he held me.  We are so happy, words cannot express. 

First and foremost...  I thank the Lord for this miracle!  He had His hand in this from the beginning.  Lots of prayer and from His leading, we got to this point.  Praise God for giving us this Blessing!

2010 good bye... Hello 2011!  Happy New Years to you all!  Thanks for following and I so appreciate all of the support through this journey.  It took us 2 1/2 years for us to get our first BFP!!!

6dp5(6)dt...

and no, I didn't POAS.  I got some sense knocked into me with all of those comments!  Thank you ladies for helping me save face! LOL.  I am probably too scared to see the results anyway. 

Yesterday I was having bouts of doubt (rhyme?).  I had absolutely no symptoms what-so-ever.  Yes, of course the typical P4 symptoms (engorged sore boobs I get every time, twinges, and on again off again cramps), but nothing out of the usual.

I will never forget when I was going through injectable/IUI cycles and when it came to BETA day (D-Day), the nurse would ask if I felt bloated?  I never did.... hence, no pregnancy.

As of yesterday all my OHSS had disappeared...  No more pain, full belly, feelings of fluid splashing around.  And after ER I read that a lot of times OHSS comes back with a BFP, because its HCG induced.  I'm sure that's what the nurse was talking about with the previous cycles.

Well... today I was lounging on the couch, feet on ottoman, I brought my knees in closer to me, and there it was... the feeling of bloat, H2O in the belly again.  But I may be totally crazy!  Maybe it never went away fully?  Maybe its just my imagination?   I'm going to be paying attention to the bloat... and PRAYING it gets worse!!!

5 more days til BETA! I'm freaking out!!!