I wish I could say I left there feeling great about moving forward. I don't. I have a bit of anxiety about it, to be quite honest. Now, don't get me wrong, Dr. Anderson is great. He is very kind, made me feel comfortable, and even said, "I won't abandon you!" Because I totally felt abandoned by Dr. R this last year. Not totally his fault, however he warned me that he was moving, but still. Never did I think this past year would end up like this.
So here is were I am struggling... We have 27 eggs. How many do we ICSI? What if we have left over embryo's... that are NORMAL!? How do you decide what to do with them? C made it VERY clear last night that he only wants to transfer one time. If we have two normals, he would want to put them both in and call it a day. Here is the problem. Dr. Anderson will only do SET (single embryo transfers). He said he has seen too many horrible outcomes with twin pregnancy's. He said we were super lucky. My other problem now is C. He also made it veery clear that if we have two normals and we transfer one, we are are DONE. He won't want to transfer the last one! I'm so at a loss! What if we ended up with three? I mean we could also end up zero! HELP ME!
I asked Dr. A, "Now Knowing we only really want one or two, how many would you ICSI?" He said "All of them." What!? That scares me to death! He explained that because my eggs were frozen, the quality of them will not be as good, and because I overstimmed it could also effect quality. He also said that for my age, and with fresh eggs, 1 out of 5 are normal. Hmmmm... so maybe we should do 10?
I don't know guys. I feel very confused! I have been praying all day for wisdom and discernment on this. If you have any wisdom, please share!
He is also sending me for blood work this week and wants me to do an office hysteroscopy Wednesday! I'm CD 18 and there is no O in sight. As for blood work, he is looking for other blood clotting disorders that may have caused the m/c. My other RE's didn't do that! I do believe he knows what he is doing.
I really wish God would just tell me clearly what to do. I know he is my guide and I need to listen to my gut. I am working on being in a quiet space when I pray. This is a challenge with two littles, but it is a must!
