felt like posting. I started my period last monday. I knew I wasn't pregnant on Saturday, so I quit taking the Progesterone then.
I thought I would be okay with everything...not being pregnant. C and I had discussed a child-free life, and I was actually excited about the possiblity. Well it hasn't felt that way those positive feelings have dissipated. I think I'm depressed... again.
I'm in a funk and I am not sure how to get out of it. I am tired, and sluggish all the time. I thought it was just hormones or PMS. Its not. I'm really not sure how to feel about everything. It just feels so finite. We are not going to do IVF (at least not right now). I'm not sure what to do with my life? How do we get back to just living again? Without TTC? I feel so lost...
I have an appointment with my counselor again on Wednesday. Hopefully she will give me new insight on what to do with my new "child-free" life. Maybe adoption is in our future?? I know God is closing some doors but He is bound to open new ones... I just have to wait and see!