Really, we were both hoping and praying for a magical little miracle to happen. But it didn't.
Our appointment was Sept. 26. I was anxious. I wasn't sure how it was going to go. Chris wasn't 100% he wanted to go through it again. We had concerns.
I walked into the RE's office and my eyes started tearing up! The nurse looked one look at me and remember me immediately! Its been FOUR YEARS since I walked out of there, also with tears in my eyes (happy tears of course!). We made it full circle.
Dr. R is amazing, honestly. He gave me a big hug and was excited to see how Rocco and Maximus were doing. We all chatted for a bit casually. Then came the questions.
We were concerned about embryo's in particular. Lets recap... Last time, I made 29 eggs and I was on the lowest dose of medicine apparently. I DO NOT want 29 embryos. I honestly have a tough time making more than we need. He suggested to ICSI 8 of them and we would likely get 2 blasts. That seems like a lot to me still. I suggested 6, and he agreed that would suffice. We would then freeze any extra eggs, incase it doesn't work, so I would at least not have to go through the entire IVF process again with egg retrieval.
Has anyone done this? I literally had a nightmare last night that we had all of our ICSI'd eggs become perfect blasts. I do not think I could live with myself. I could not have all of these babies. I could not live knowing that I had kids growing up somewhere with another family near by (if we adopted them out), and I do not think I could destroy them! What to do?! I guess I'm still really torn on the number.
We have a little time to figure it out, pray, pray, pray, and TRUST God will guide us into the best outcome!
Right now I'm in the waiting phase... currently in the middle of my cycle. I have to wait to start my period and then start the BCP's. We have a little time to figure it out again.
Thoughts welcome!
I thought I would share this picture I took of my twins today. They are truly best buddies... and are asking for a little brother or sister! We are praying!!!
2 comments:
Yeah! Back in the saddle, so to speak. You didn't have any frosties from the previous cycle?
My Vegas,
no, unfortunately! If you remember, we had ZERO fertilize and had to do Rescue ICSI on eggs that were already 24 hours old! We were so lucky we had two miracle Blasts, out of the 29 eggs! So we are "back in the saddle" again!
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