|My boy Maximus on the SUP with Mommy!|
After my last poas around 3pm, seeing a BFN, I couldn't take it any more... I put those sticks AWAY! Vowing not to test for at least two days so I can get a better answer. I went to bed feeling hopeless, 100% sure that this didn't work, devastated, bargaining with God, I am going to bed with new found hope tonight!
How am I feeling 5dp6dt? I think I might have tested too soon! HELLO BLOAT!!!!! Oh how I missed you! Its back... its full on! I should my stomach to my hubby and he confirmed. He had just got done commenting how flat my stomach was again two days ago. My bb's are also getting sore, more so on the sides.
This morning I woke up still feeling helpless. Hopeless. You should read my prayer journal! Asking God WHY? WHY does this keep happening to us? I was then reading in Psalms and I was given this verse...
Reminded again that my hope and trust is in him... and nothing else!
Today my gf Crystal and I took our kiddos to the nature center in New Port Back Bay. It was the perfect place to get my mind off of all this! The had a scavenger hunt for the kids to find things in nature... lady bug, tadpoles, pinecone, bark, a log, butterfly, lizard, etc. The kids LOVED it! I found it super healing.
As I was walking around, I kept thinking, am I feeling the bloat coming back? Are my bb's now sore? OMGosh they are! I'm not kidding, my stomach is getting more bloated by the min. AMAZING.
I am keeping those tests away. I'm going to rest in these symptoms. Pray they keep getting stronger. Wait for BETA Saturday and PRAY these babes STICK! Please let them be our take home babies!!!!