To the mothers at heart...

Happy Mothers day! Even if we are not mothers, we are mothers at heart. We long to hold our child and nurture them. So in a sense, we are mothers. Each month brings new hope, much disappointment, and we morn the loss of our child that may never be. This is a VERY difficult holiday for many of us. I truly hope you enjoyed your day and did what YOU wanted to. Cheers to all of us mom's at heart!

I actually got wished happy mothers day today by my sis-in-law. It was weird, but it almost made me cry. She said it to me because she "knew I would be a mom someday." We'll see. I am still not holding my breath.

Ironically, today was the day of our first IUI. And as I'm writing this I can feel myself ovulating (is that weird?). I had 7 big follicles all above 20... yes SEVEN! When Dr. D came into check my follies, he said "good morning octomom." UGH! I've heard that before though. I am a REALLY good responder to the follistim. My uterine lining was at 13.5. My biggest follie was at 30! The good news is that we only used HALF of the HCG trigger, so hopefully only half of my lil eggies release. I made sure to tell him I DON'T WANT MULTIPLES... maybe two? At this point though I would be happy with one lil bean. But, I am NOT getting my hopes up! Its hard when EVERYONE in the office is saying this is SUCH a good cycle. I respond by saying, ya but I've seen this before, and I'm not getting my hopes up.

I am pretty impressed with C's #'s too! He had 54 million and 91% motility! We abstained one day. I figured the more we get up there the better! The previous IUI cycle we abstained two days and his #'s were lower, 40 mil. The one before that we abstained one day and his #'s were 70 mil. So I figure he must do better doing it everyday! He doesn't complain ;-) (TMI) And of course, I help him out with his sample!

Tomorrow we go back for another IUI. I am REALLY over going to Dr. D's. I feel like I live there! I am so excited to be done with this, what ever the outcome. Although, I know if we do get PG we'll be going once a week (but I won't mind it then, I'm sure!) for the next 12 weeks.

Mothers Day wasn't all too bad. It took so much out of me to call my sis-in-law, who is PG, and wish her a Happy Moms Day (she got PG the first month trying!), but I did it anyway. Of course I called my Mom, who is my best friend! But, the rest of the day I cooked and relaxed with C and laid out by the pool. Overall, not a bad day.

No Easter Hunt Needed Here...

I am on CD 3 and I had my appointment with Dr. D this morning. I was very excited.. especially because my DH came with me.

When I called a few days ago to let them know I started my period (which only took exactly 1 week from the time I received my progesterone shot!), they warned me that they have to do an ultrasound to ensure my ovaries have no cysts on them(THANK YOU PCOS!!!). So the last few days I was so worried that I would have a giant cyst or something and wouldn't be able to begin my injections tonight. But again I had to remind myself (as well as, my mother had to remind me), that it is in God's hands.

Once we arrived to Dr. D's, I got undressed for the u/s. We were both a little nervous about what he might say. I knew I had a lot of follicles, but I wasn't prepared for his comment. First he showed me and DH my NEW AND IMPROVED uterus... then my ovaries and said, "Wow you have a ton of eggs!" I replied, "well that's a good thing, right?" Dr. D continued, "Yes, but we don't want you to be the next OCTOMOM." My husband interjected, " Ya we definately don't want to be the next Chris and Sara plus eight either!" We all kinda laughed. But, its the reality, and its scary!

After I got dressed we went into the other room and went over instructions on how to inject myself (DH is too scared of needles to help me). He is starting me on the lowest dose, of 75, over the weekend to see how my EGGS and ovaries respond. My appointments for next week will be on Monday, Wednesday, Friday, and possible every day following Friday. Then he said they want to do two IUI's, possibly starting the following Monday, depending on how my egg's do. HOW EXCITING!!! I COULD BE PREGNANT IN 2 WEEKS!! Please pray for me and my husband if you read this!