It is so crazy how God uses times like this to stretch our faith. I mean, C and I really believed we would get pregnant the first try again with our December 2014 IVF. Ha! It has almost been one whole year of starting IF treatments for baby #3, and no bambino! I think that would have been to easy for God. I think he would rather use this time to grow our faith and give us an amazing story to share with others to give Him all the glory. I mean, Rocco and Maximus's story just keeps getting more and more miraculous, if I don't say so myself!
How on earth we every conceived, let alone conceived twins, is beyond my brain.
Born with a Septated Uterus
Two surgeries to remove it.
Have MTHFR gene mutation (everyone with PCOS does, apparently)
Husbands sperm cannot penetrate my eggs (reason unknown)
Almost complete IVF failure
TWO healthy gorgeous boys born Aug. 5, 2011
WHAT AN AMAZING GOD WE HAVE
When I sit and reflect on that, I'm just blown away. Now, how can I be upset that this time hasn't gone as planned!? Yes, it is painful, yes, we wish it worked the first time, but then God wouldn't have answered our very first prayer of starting this journey for #3, which was, "Lord, please give us just enough!" One of our fears was having left over embryos. Now we won't. We've used them all, or are about to. Each one will have been placed where it was supposed to go. They have all been prayed over.
We are currently doing a bible study on faith. I have to say the timing couldn't be more perfect. One of the the things I've been struggling with isn't faith, because I believe our God can do anything (see above), but trusting that he will do it again for me. TRUST has been such a big word for me as we go through this. It is a scary thing to put all of your trust in something/someone. I was really convicted about this, going through FET #4. I wanted to put a wall up, go through the motions, so my heart won't break again, but that is not trusting in what He can do. I am going to believe in the impossible.
"According to your FAITH, will it be done to you." Matthew 9:29
My faith is strong, My trust is finally catching up, I am believing and praying for our miracles.
Our tentative transfer date is going to be October 16th. Prayers appreciated :)