Friday, October 23, 2015

3dp5dt FET#4

The last couple days were a breeze... today, hormonal mess!  I feel ultra sensitive, ultra tired, bloated and I have an on again off again headache that I woke up with.  I know it is all related to all the wonderful hormones I am on, but it sure makes it extremely hard not to think... what if?

I know it is WAY too early for any REAL pregnancy symptoms, but feeling like this makes me have POAS on my mind! Do you think I can hold out?  I have one FRER upstairs.  I should just go use it, to get it out of the house!  WHY OH WHY is the 2WW so hard!?

You really forget how difficult it is, until those P4 symptoms kick into high gear!

I've been pretty crampy since 1dpt, but I will list yesterdays...

  • 2dp6dt- cramps, twinges, EXHAUSTED by 3pm (I couldn't finish putting away the groceries I had to lay down!), not a huge appetite.

  • 3dp5dt- woke up with a dull headache and its been coming and going today, cramps still, maybe my bb's are getting sore (?), emotional, really tired all day, not a big appetite.

One thing I forgot to mention prior to transfer...  So a week prior to transfer I had been reading about assisted hatching and noticed on all the sites that it mentioned that the steroid, Medrol is necessary to take so your body doesn't reject the embryos and have an inflammatory response. Well, once I realized that, I immediately called my RE's office to speak to a nurse.  Only Barbara was available and she is not my favorite.  She always seems to make me feel like I'm asking too many questions.  Anyway, she said that they no longer use Medrol because new studies have shown it doesn't help either way.

That was not good enough for me!

I emailed Dr. A. and she said that it was true that they didn't normally give Medrol anymore, but looking back at my twins cycle, I WAS ON MEDROL!!!! Can you believe that!?  She said it would be up to me if I wanted it again.  I replied, "absolutely since that was my one cycle that worked!"

I can't help but wonder if that was my missing link for the last three cycles!  So LAME!

This journey can be so frustrating!

I started the Medrol Sunday and finished yesterday.  I had to take 4 pills a day for 4 days.

This morning I also woke up with a sick feeling in my stomach too!  I realized that Assisted Hatching, AH, was not mentioned at transfer and it wasn't on my embryo report.  I have been on the phone with my RE, and no one has an answer for me!  Apparently they are short handed in the lab and the embryologies haven't gotten back!  I just want to confirm it was done... for peace of mind, I guess!

I told C about my fears that AH wasn't preformed.  His reply, "Gods bigger than assisted hatching!" Duh!  He is so confident this is going to work this time!  I love it!  I really need some verses to rebuke doubt right now!  I think I will google some...

Wow!  For those of you who need a kick in the pants on FAITH, read Hebrews 11.  So good!


Kimberly Taylor said...

Do not worry about anything, instead pray about everything. Tell God your needs and don't forget to thank him for his answers. If you do this you will experience Gods peace, which is far more wonderful than the human mind can understand. His peace will keep your thoughts and your hearts quiet and at rest as you trust in Christ Jesus. Phil 6-7

For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord! Plans of welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope. Jeremiah 29:11

PUT the test down! You don't want to get a false reading. I got a false negative on Monday, and a positive beta on Friday. I was so upset on Monday and questioning Gods plan. But as soon as I started to pray, and lean on God more, seeking him for answers instead of trying to figure it out myself, he gave me my sign. I just got my 2nd beta done this morning and I've been praying all morning. Lord let this be the one. (or two!)

My (In)fertile Confessions said...

Oh thank you for those lovely verses!! Jeremiah 29:11 was the verse I kept praying over my boys when I was pregnant with them!

And yayayayayayay!!!!! Congratulations momma!!!! How amazing! God is so good!!! Do you have a blog too? Would love to follow!! What were your betas? I hope great! Praying for you!! I have a ton of updates... Stay tuned!!!

Kimberly Taylor said...

I have that one posted at my desk. I love those verses. And yes! I still can't beleive it. My DH is like, duh - you're doing fert treatments to get pregnant. I guess after I got that bfn I just totally blocked it out of my head and was ready to move on to the next cycle. So this caught me by surprise.
I DO have a blog:

Currently waiting for 2 weeks to pass for my 1st sono on the 10th. But I'm also basking in the Glory. Right now, at the moment I am pregnant. And I'll think about "what could be" another day.

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