Last night (and the last few days), I was filled with anxiety and fear, questioning if we were doing the right thing, attempting to having more babies, and how many to transfer. I really feel like the devil was at work and I was being spiritually attacked. I tossed and turned couldn't sleep. I prayed and prayed for peace and clarity on transferring one or two embryos. I finally fell asleep when I felt that God answered me. I was reminded that this whole cycle, I laid at His feet, like I did with the boys. I let go and let God do his work. So we decided that we are putting our faith in trust in the creator of life. I realized that no matter what we put in, God has the final say. We can end up with no baby, one baby or two! I fell asleep at that thought and felt sure we were doing the right thing.
I ended up having a terrible dream that Dr. A only transferred one and left the other one in the dish and it was going to be destroyed. I was beyond devastated! More confirmation we needed to transfer both!
Last night Rocco did the most precious thing at dinner, he prayed the most sincere prayer on his own. He stopped eating and said "we need to pray mommy." He closed his eyes put his two hands together and said, "Dear Lord, please put two babies in mommy's tummy, one for Maximus and one for me." My heart completely melted. Lord hear his prayer!
We are finally PUPO! PUPO With the best two blasts I've ever seen! A 6AA completely hatched embryo and an almost completely hatched AA embryo (Kristine our embryologist said it was like a 5 1/2 AA)! They were so big they couldn't capture their whole picture! What a blessing! We are so thankful! Thank you for all of your prayers! Now we just need some sticky vibes for these two beauties 😍😍
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taken right before transfer, valium kicking in! :)
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We had the most stressful time getting to the transfer! I was 15 minutes late! Every light was red going down the freeway, the onramp was closed to the freeway we had to take another detour, horrible LA traffic, more red lights off the freeway. I was a stress case and so thankful for the valium!
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Our embabies! The top on is the 6AA, the bottom is the almost 6AA :))
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1 comment:
Beautiful! I absolutely loved that your boys prayed for this too. Praying for peace, and patience for you over the next two(ish) weeks. Keep the faith, and keep bowing down at his feet and let him take care of you. His Will be done!
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