since I've had a glass of wine. Man, has it been good! I never thought I would say that. I love(d) wine and everything associated with it... good food paired with a fine glass of Pinot Nior, friends and socializing, relaxing after a long day, etc. However, God has been doing amazing things in my life through this. I'm not sure, but it seems as if God couldn't give me all the blessings that he has for my until I gave that part of my life to him. My walk with God is getting stronger and I'm feeling more like the woman God has created me to be. I have the desire to get involved in church and do things that are positive that don't revolve around drinking socially. I don't feel like hanging out at places where that is a primary focus. Instead, I am putting my efforts to get to know people who want to serve the Lord.
I joined a woman's bible study that started on Thursday. I am sooo excited about it. I am excited that this is where God wants me to be. I am excited that I am beginning to meet people with the same desires I have. I also decided to serve in the decorations team for the woman's conference (which was today!). I helped make the table center pieces and set up the stage. It was really fun... good clean sober fun! LOL.
Not that I feel that people shouldn't drink, or that it is wrong, or that I will never drink again. I don't know when/if I will. I do know that this is what God is calling me to do and I'm finally listening. It feels amazing.
Recently I had someone who wanted to pray over me because she found out that C and I have been struggling with IF. She does intercessory prayer, which means she intercedes for the Holy Spirit when praying. It was quite the experience. I thought that she was going to just lay hands and pray that I get pregnant (God willing). However, it ended up that I needed to forgive some people. We spent well over an hour her leading me in forgiveness. Once we were done, it as if was a huge weight had been lifted. I guess sometimes God does not give us his blessings when we are holding onto unforgiveness. She said that many people have gotten pregnant soon after prayers like this. I am being cautiously optimistic. I do feel like C and I are on a fresh start with so many avenues in our lives right now, but again, we shall see.
On a separate note... I am a little bummed because I'm CD23, and no O. Ugh! I thought that with the new upped Met dose my cycles would regulate. Its frustrating because I would like to start with my new RE! Patience is a virtue!