All of this left me feeling empty, alone, exhausted, and depressed. This was definately NOT what God wanted for me. Now, I realize that yes, I'm going through IF, but I'm not alone. I now realized that going through this WITH God, and trusting in His provisions for my life, is building my faith and character, which will in turn, make me a better wife, mother, and follower of Jesus Christ.
"Trust in the Lord, and do good.
Then you will live safely in the land and prosper.
Take delight in the Lord,
and he will give you your hearts desires.
Commit everything you do to the Lord.
Trust him, and he will help you.
He will make your innocence radiate like the dawn,
and the justice of your cause will shine like the noonday sun.
Be still in the presence of the Lord,
and wait patiently for him to act.
or fret about their wicked schemes.
Stop being angry!
Turn from your rage!
Do not lose your temper-
in only leads to harm.
For the wicked will be destroyed,